the reason why i cant let go of you just yet.
its always like that, i can think of a hundred reasons why i should let you go but you'll give me just one to make me think twice and stay.
that's pearls before swine by stephan pastis by the way.one of my favourite because there is a good balance of cynic pun humour and cuteness.

i'm glad you're back safe.
and those biking trip over the weekend, please be safe.

:) :) :)
i know this is very childish but look at my two lovely sunny-s! :) and pink flowers!

chivalry is more than just paying for your date, heck maybe that doesnt count
because its all about those little considerate things every gentlemen should do.
probably the reason why i enjoy being a (single) lady.

"No, i'm no one's wife
But, oh, i love my life
And all that jazz"

maybe when we're done with fighting our own wars, for education, for career, for dreams
and we realise that neither of us have quitted or lose ay faith in each other
that we can be truly together.
for now, its gonna be a long battle ahead.

this is such a disorganised post because i'm very disorganised right now.
finishing up the last epi of himym4 and/or chicago before getting some sleep.
goodnight world

love puzzles me like the toughest most complicated uh physics questions.
how can someone just saps all your time and energy away?
how can someone be as equally important as all your friends and family combined?
how can someone be tying you down while you blissfully accepts that?
how can someone that hardly matter a while ago suddendly be all you're living and dying for?
how can someone put you through so much mental torture and yet you'll forgive him unquestioningly?
false dilemma, chronic insecurities and unspoken contracts
maybe thats why they say love's blind.

someday i'm gonna watch chicago the musical live.

liberation day today!!! (:
alot of me-time from now on to catch up with those good arty musicy stuffs i've been missing

i just realised that the word stay and stray differ only by one alphabet.
st(r)ay?

i wish there's a better and less boring way to say these.
but i'm not good with words.
so i'll say the three/ four words how like everyone else does.
i (will) miss you
please be safe while i fight my version of war here.

ps. you're way sneakier, bad-er but definitely better

i can hear your voice all night my boy.
you're being too good to me sometimes i wonder why i feel so insecure.
in the love game, the heart wins.
it triumphs over logic.
it triumphs over rational.
sure my heart will probably be stabbed and wounded and left to bleed over and over again.
but for you, i'll have no regrets.

lost track of time but wow, it've been really a while since i last saw you.
i miss you.
not in the i'm feeling crazy let's do illegal things kind of miss you.
but in the most innocent i really miss you miss you.
let me see you before you leave again?

i need to know that everything happens for a reason, and will turn out just fine eventually.
if i have more faith and not so many panic attacks, life will be a thousand times easier.
i'm really really tired and drained and exhausted and why am i stil not getting my sleep at this freaking hour?

how come the slightest thing like my name, sounded so different when you say it?
i know i need to quit you, to end things like mature people and maybe have a fresh start.
but its so hard because i've given you part of my heart and its impossible to take it back.
you need to stop messing with my head.

yst i dreamt of going out with someone not musicy but i'm head over heels for him.
is this some sort of a sign that we've max-ed out our time tgt?
i dismissed the thought the last time our lips met.
i dismissed the thought this morning when i woke.
but i really dont have good feelings about this.
okay the i'm-imposing-a-self-ban-on-any-loverboy-thought(s) is still on.
g'bye my boy.hello endless mugging.
for now.for now.
we need to talk.